VIDEO | Ronda Rousey finally opens up on Amanda Nunes loss: I thought “God hates me”

After a flawless, 12-0 start to her run as a professional mixed martial artist, Ronda Rousey‘s career was derailed by two brutal losses. The first came courtesy of Holly Holm, who put her down with a second-round head kick, while the second was dealt by Amanda Nunes, who put her away with punches in less than a minute.

Given the way Rousey drew away from the limelight after these losses, it should come as no surprise to learn that she took them quite hard.

Speaking quite candidly in a segment that aired during WWE Raw on Monday evening, Rousey opened up on these losses for the first time since… well, maybe ever.

“I remember my last fight, walking away thinking ‘God hates me.’ I had nothing left in me,” Rousey said of her loss to Nunes (h/t MMAFighting.com).

Though this loss was difficult for her to swallow, Rousey said her husband, UFC heavyweight Travis Browne, helped her keep her composure.

“My husband is amazing and he really brought me out of some tough times,” Rousey said of Browne. “He would just look at me and just say like, ‘You’re not only this. You’re more than just a fighter.’ That’s not a bad thing, that’s not something I should be ashamed of, it’s something that I should embrace and showcase to the world and that’s why I’m here.”

Whatever the case, Rousey feels her path has always led to WrestleMania.

“I’m not afraid to care anymore,” she said. “I needed to be miserable then to be truly happy now. It’s all led to this and I didn’t even realize that I’ve always been on this path.”

“I thought the Olympic gold medal was all I was ever gonna care about,” Rousey said. “But life happens and things change. Then UFC was all I thought I was ever gonna care about. And then life happens and things change. Winning in WrestleMania, it feels like all I’ve ever cared about. I’ve been accumulating all the skills along the way to be the best at this. I was always meant to be on this stage. I was always meant to be at WrestleMania.”

How do you think Ronda Rousey will perform at WrestleMania?

This article first appeared on BJPenn.com on 3/19/2018.